Whatta Night
Sep. 27th, 2024 12:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
release_the_quackenI don't know how many people out there deal with sleep paralysis, but I know I'm among you.
Last night I spent so much of my sleep time in the throes of it. it was all too real, and yet I'm guessing it wasn't.
In my sleep I swore my hubs finally came up and tried to snuggle with me, and it shocked me awake. I made a little noise, and sort of flinch jumped, but when I realised it was him I tried to respond, but couldn't get my voice to work.
He then started whisper talking to me. I kept trying to hear him and asking him to repeat - my voice straining for the barest whisper back - only for him to stop talking. I could hear snippets and it sounded unhappy with the way I jumped initially. ANYWAY, this kept going on, and I'd start to fall back to sleep only to wake again to him talking, and each time trying desperately to pull myself out of limbo land to talk or move or anything only to barely get out a whimper. Must have happened at least 5 or 6 times.
Then one time I woke, I couldn't breathe... at least I thought I couldn't and I was trying to say "help" but it was so hard to get my vocals to work. Eventually my brain said, "if we couldn't breathe we wouldn't still be here." Yay brain for logic intervention.
I swear I actually broke through and screamed a little.
But cue 2:45am when my alarm went off, I do actually wake up, and look over to wake hubs, but he's not in bed, and in fact his side of the bed doesn't look like he's been there at all. (He was gaming when I went up, so probably another night of that).
I'm going to ask him when he gets home from work just to clarify because I swore he was there last night, and I was trapped in between worlds for hours.
At least no faceless people were hanging about as is usually the case during my sleep paralysis episodes. Just the incessant whispering about all the ways I was a bad person. Oh, and the suffocation while not being able to cry for help or even move a muscle to show I needed help. Wheeeeee.
0/10 would not recommend.
On the up side, I look nice today.
Last night I spent so much of my sleep time in the throes of it. it was all too real, and yet I'm guessing it wasn't.
In my sleep I swore my hubs finally came up and tried to snuggle with me, and it shocked me awake. I made a little noise, and sort of flinch jumped, but when I realised it was him I tried to respond, but couldn't get my voice to work.
He then started whisper talking to me. I kept trying to hear him and asking him to repeat - my voice straining for the barest whisper back - only for him to stop talking. I could hear snippets and it sounded unhappy with the way I jumped initially. ANYWAY, this kept going on, and I'd start to fall back to sleep only to wake again to him talking, and each time trying desperately to pull myself out of limbo land to talk or move or anything only to barely get out a whimper. Must have happened at least 5 or 6 times.
Then one time I woke, I couldn't breathe... at least I thought I couldn't and I was trying to say "help" but it was so hard to get my vocals to work. Eventually my brain said, "if we couldn't breathe we wouldn't still be here." Yay brain for logic intervention.
I swear I actually broke through and screamed a little.
But cue 2:45am when my alarm went off, I do actually wake up, and look over to wake hubs, but he's not in bed, and in fact his side of the bed doesn't look like he's been there at all. (He was gaming when I went up, so probably another night of that).
I'm going to ask him when he gets home from work just to clarify because I swore he was there last night, and I was trapped in between worlds for hours.
At least no faceless people were hanging about as is usually the case during my sleep paralysis episodes. Just the incessant whispering about all the ways I was a bad person. Oh, and the suffocation while not being able to cry for help or even move a muscle to show I needed help. Wheeeeee.
0/10 would not recommend.
On the up side, I look nice today.
